Dear Lincoln,

Fussy baby is back. You went through a stage of being an easy baby, but you are not that child anymore. Now don't take me the wrong way, you aren't the most horrible baby. In fact if you were my first you might even seem easy. But with having two other children, it makes everything seem harder. That said, tonight you weren't fussy. Even though you had barley napped and should've been cranky, you weren't. You were extraordinarily happy! Your Dad and I just relished in the moment. We ignored the show we were watching to watch you. Watch you smile and talk like you always do. You talk all the time. Your Dad always tells me he loves listening to your stories! We even got a couple giggles out of you! :) You smile makes my day little man! :)

The other day I got out my tripod with a goal. I was going to get a picture of you and I together that I loved! I didn't think it happened. I was absolutely frustrated. But then as I was editing I found one! The perfect picture of you and I. I love it so much! In face there were a couple that I love. I love them not because they're perfect. But because they're us. You and me. Our relationship in pictures. I can't even tell you how incredibly lucky I am to have you as a son. I love you so much sometimes I worry my heart will explode!

Love,
Mom

Dear Lincoln,

I can't believe it's 2016! That's right today is New Years Day! This year is going to be a big one for you especially. You'll learn to walk, talk, roll over, crawl, and walk! Oh and eat solid foods! Man alive you are going to be quite productive this year! ;) I can't wait to spend 2016 with you and watch as you grow into a big 1 year old!

I love you my precious son!

Love,
Mom

p.s. I took your 3 month pictures today and boy was it rough. I was almost in tears at one point. I hope we got at least a few good ones!

Dear Lincoln,

Since your Dad has to work Christmas we are celebrating it today and tomorrow! So, happy first Christmas handsome! I'm afraid to say you are sick. As is Dad, me, and Olivia! It's no fun to be sick for Christmas but we are all suffering in misery together! :) You are currently napping on your Dad's chest and it's adorable! I think Dad might be napping as well! :)

I just wanted to tell you how grateful I am for you this Christmas. I have been really touched by the nativity story this year. I'm not sure why I'm so emotional over it but I think part of it is having you. I see infant you and can't help but imagine how Mary was feeling. It's an amazing thing to have a baby for Christmas! I am so glad you are here to celebrate with us!

I love you so much Lincoln! Thank you for coming to our family!

Love,
Mom

Dear Lincoln

I forgot to mention how vocal you are. Especially right after you were born! Your dad and I both commented on how much noise you made. Not necessarily crying but lots of grunts and squeaks. I love listening to you "talk"! 

I knew I shouldn't complain about your sleeping habits. The last two days you've been a fussy bucket. You at least still sleep good at night but during the day is another story. You seem to be going through a stage of cluster feeding. You just want to eat all the time. That makes it very difficult for me to give your other siblings attention. Or to get anything done at all. Luckily your dads been off work the past two days but today he goes back. I'm a little worried about how it's going to work out. Hopefully it's not too bad! :) 

Today is your two week doctor appointment. I hope it all goes well. I have this fear for some reason that we'll find out you're not gaining weight. I think I'm only worried because you are such a tiny guy! You still seem so small to me. I'll let you know how it goes. I love you!

Love,

Mom

Later that day...

You're appointment went really good! You gained weight!!!! Hurray!! You are 7 lbs 6 oz which is one ounce over your birth weight! Good job son! :) You're in the 20th percentile for weight, the 25th for height (20 inches), and the 50th for your head. They also informed us that your collar bone had broken during birth! You poor thing! They said there's nothing they can do and it should heal on its own! Birth was pretty rough on both of us apparently! ;)

I love you handsome!

Love,

Mom

Dear Lincoln,

Hi. You surprised me by coming 12 days before your due date. But that will be a story for another time. This letter is for all the little things I want to remember. Because if being a mom of three has taught me anything, it's that time goes by too fast and you'll be one before I know it. So let's talk about newborn Lincoln. 

Today you are nine days old. I can't believe how fast these nine days have gone. You are quite the sleeper. I don't know if I just don't accurately remember or not but I swear you sleep more than my other babies. You are either asleep or eating. There is no in between. Not that I'm complaining by any means. It's just thrown me off a bit. I can't really tell you how you sleep in the nighttime. Despite all my good intentions and goals before you were born we have been bed sharing since the day you came home. It's just too convienent to have you right there when it's time to nurse. So I sleep pretty good at night. And don't really know how many times you actually wake up! ;)

Okay I'm continuing this letter and you are now 12 days old! Today is your due date! It's the first time I haven't been pregnant on my due date and I'm rather fond of it. 

You are more awake now than before. You are starting to get chunky and you face is getting some personality! I love when your just awake looking around! :) 

You really hate to burp. Anytime you burp or spit up you whine. It's cute and sad at the same time! ;) you so far don't spit up too much. That could change at any second. Especially since I just jinxed myself. 

Your siblings love you. Especially Olivia. Much to my dismay I can't get her away from you. she is constantly trying to hug you or lay on you or kiss you! Today I turned around and found her full on holding you all by herself.. Standing up! I nearly had a heart attack! Bently loves you too! He talks about you a lot and has lots of questions about you. Like why you don't have teeth. Or why you throw up! 

Your umbilical cord came off on the tenth. I thought it would never come off, so to prove me wrong it fell off in my lap. It was gross, but exciting. We still haven't given you your first bath yet! I can't wait to do that. 

You my Lincoln boy are special. You have not followed the norm by any means. You have already proven you're going to do things your own way and I couldn't be more pleased. See you are my first baby where I don't have to go back to work. That's right, you get me 24/7. It's strange though, I still find myself in that going back to work mind set. I cuddle you every second I can and I am truly cherishing every second we get together. I love you so much handsome. I wish to slow down time just a little. I want to cuddle you and smell your newborn smell a little longer. I worry with the holidays coming up that time will go too fast, as it always does this time of year. So I am going to pay extra attention and hold onto time as much as possible. 

I love you Lincoln. 

Love,

Mom